Aethereality

Heeeyyy everyone... here's how much different my life is!  I'm pregnant, I'm engaged, and baby is a boy!  I still draw, though sparingly, as my life is really busy with juggling work, doctor appointments, and domestic life... My new house has a very nice sun porch, and I am planning on commandeering it and turning it into a "creative outlet" space.  My keyboard, horn, and various other instruments will be there, as well as my easel and any canvas/sketchbooks that I have will be there too!  Hopefully I can keep little Gage (baby BOY!  Due 16 Feb!) out of there when he can reach/destroy things, as well as Kevo's girls when they move in (SOON)!

My emotions are a bundle.  I'm torn.  And I need someone who knows how I feel to tell me how I feel.  Because I cannot sort out my own emotions. I have a horrible feeling I know exactly what it all means, but it's terrifying. The only person I think will understand won't understand this.  Because these feelings involve him, and I'm pretty sure he doesn't feel the same way. Makes me want to cry and I'm not sad.  To laugh, and I want to scream.  Smile, when I feel so down. WTF is HAPPENING to ME???

The easiest way to win my heart-- --buy me a new set of charcoal pencils and some more art gum, or a set of oil pastels with a black paper sketchbook, or an easel, a canvas, and a set of oil and/or watercolors with a full set of brushes. I feel so artistically inspired it is ridiculous.  MUST... DRAW... Too bad I lost all my art stuff in the move out of my situation. >