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Badness

Sun Dec 6, 2009, 7:41 PM
  • Mood: Stuck
  • Listening to: Bright Eyes?
  • Watching: What Not to Wear
  • Playing: Ninety Nine Nights (again)
I can't do anything without hurting someone I know. Every decision I make has unintended consequences, and I'm starting to learn that I have to think before I act. A lot of these unintended consequences are excruciatingly painful for me.

And I'm expecting to be able to go back to school and maintain my bad decision making process. Maybe I should just spontaneously combust now and solve my problem later. Or maybe I have to start looking before I leap. I can't keep doing this to myself or I won't have anyone at all. I'm already miserable, and things managed to hold together from my last mistake. I just have to start my relationship of 14 months all over again, and I don't even know if it's worth it to continue yet... well, at least not all the way.

Because all our relationship is about is seeing who can hurt whom the worst, and if I've done this damage, I'm almost afraid to know what he's done to me. And I know there's something he's not telling me, he was hinting about it pretty hardcore last night but he wouldn't tell me just what.

But I think I already know anyway and I don't know.

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Comments


:iconmaddie-lyn:
Molly!

Solo.

Choir.

I have one.

Hell froze over, and I like it. :P
:iconaethereality:
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!

When are you performing said solo?

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:iconmaddie-lyn:
In Chicago this weekend.

I was shocked when he looked at me and was like, "You sing it."

Priscilla even tried out. :P
:iconaethereality:
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay Kayleigh!

Good luck and congratulaaaations!

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:iconmaddie-lyn:
Molly, I'm beginning to hate IWC.
:iconaethereality:
Who isn't?

I guess the more logical question is, what's happened now? >_>

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:iconmaddie-lyn:
I don't remember exactly why I wrote that at the time that I did.

Right now what is happening is Spillane is taking things way too far, and actually made Kate cry during rehearsal one day. He's still being a douche about solos (still haven't gotten one), and he's just being an idiot.
:iconaethereality:
Well, look at all he has. I mean, seriously. His choirs are his life, and he probably tolerated enough messing around when I was there. It's not geared toward you; it's all geared toward making his choirs sound best--even if it means overlooking his semi-talented singers in lieu of his better ones.

And THAT is unfortunate. :(

I hate that he's doing this to you, though. I kind of see where he's coming from when I take a step back, but it's still disappointing to see that someone with a voice that is as lovely as yours would get overlooked just because you're not Priscilla Marlar.

Or someone to that effect. :(

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:iconmaddie-lyn:
I just ask for a chance to show that I can sing just as well as her. He tells us that we're all great and wonderful singers, yet doesn't give us the chance to show what we're made of.

If we're so good that we made broadstreet, why aren't we good enough to get the chance to try?

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